I've learned piano for almost a decade. And then I stopped. But, even at my best performance, it was as if I only learned to play for a maximum of five years. It has been almost four years since my last piano lesson and I've only been getting worse. But I love the piano. And I know that all I've ever done was suck at playing piano. I want to get better. I can't let this aspect of my life go to waste, especially if all I'm doing is getting worse. I'm mad. Just thinking about what I'm doing right now makes me angry and disappointed. I've reached the point where even listening to piano pieces puts a hole in my heart. So I'm going to get better. I want to enjoy listening to piano pieces again. I don't want to associate the piano with any kind of hate towards anything or myself anymore. I'm going to practice every day, no matter what.
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