Recent PxTones

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I forgot to mention this before

So, sometime around this week, I actually fixed something in my piano.

For context, in mid-2021, the damper/sustain pedal stopped working. I had no idea what it was, but I did hear and feel something come undone. At the time, I was actually hoping to save enough money to get an expert to fix it for us (and I guess maybe give the keys a little tuning), but clearly that never happened.

Skip a couple years later all the way to sometime last week. I was listening to an old recording of myself playing the piano, and really felt nostalgic to the time where I would just imporvise random crap. And a lot of it involved the damper pedal. And so, I went, "that's it! I'm going to see if there is actually a person that can fix all this!"

I looked up my issue on the internet, came across some YouTube videos and I learned that you could just... OPEN the lower-front of the piano like that. And after a while of trial and error and trying to find the right video that matched my issue...

It just turned out that all I needed to to was tighten the key screwed to the pedal and the lever. I've never felt so happy and also proud of myself!

WE ARE SO BACK!!!

Stuck in my head - Summer by adustam

adustam · Summer

AW YEAH

By SOME miracle, I’m not doing all that bad!

I’ve made it up to bar 6 and can play up to bar 4 with barely any *BAD* stumbles 

Learning a new piece

I may be reaching a little too ambitiously. I’m kind of determined, though. It’s not like I’m doing this for school/uni or anything, so it’s fine. 

CURRENTLY LEARNING: Sonate (Pathétique) Op. 13 - Beethoven

A more blog-worthy post about how I currently feel about piano

I've learned piano for almost a decade. And then I stopped. But, even at my best performance, it was as if I only learned to play for a maximum of five years. It has been almost four years since my last piano lesson and I've only been getting worse. But I love the piano. And I know that all I've ever done was suck at playing piano. I want to get better. I can't let this aspect of my life go to waste, especially if all I'm doing is getting worse. I'm mad. Just thinking about what I'm doing right now makes me angry and disappointed. I've reached the point where even listening to piano pieces puts a hole in my heart. So I'm going to get better. I want to enjoy listening to piano pieces again. I don't want to associate the piano with any kind of hate towards anything or myself anymore. I'm going to practice every day, no matter what.

It's TIME

For five years now, it hurts me in the heart every time I hear a good piano piece. But this is one of those times where I convert that anger and disappointment into MOTIVATION. IT'S TIME. I'LL PRACTICE EVERY DAY. FUCK YOU, THOUGHTS